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英语学习爱与寂寞
Thereisnolove,thereisnolove1
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Doyouloveanyone?
Thatmeansyoudon'taskforanythinginreturn.Don'taskthepersonyoulovetorepay.Becauseas
Ifyourelyonit,thenfear,jealousy,anxiety,hatred,andangerbegin.Ifyourelyonsomeone,this
Isitlove?
K:
withallyourexperiences,alltheknowledge,andthecivilizationinwhichyouare,youaretheresultofit,
Whydoyouhavenomercyinyourdailylife?
Tofindoutwhyyoudon'thavethereasonwhyitisnot.
Inthehumanmind,thoughtandopinion,youarenotalsoasked:
doyouhaveanyloveforanyone?
Q:
Idoubt,sir,whatexactlyislove.
K:
Sir,Iamverycarefultoaskyouifyouloveanyone?
Youmayloveyourdog,butthedogisyours.
Slaves.Inadditiontotheloveofanimals,buildings,books,poems,andtheearth,doyouloveanyone?
Inreturn,donotaskthepersonyoulovetoreturn,neverrelyonhim.Becauseifyourelyonit,fear,jealousy,anxiety,hatred,andangerbegin.Ifyourelyonsomeone,isitlove?
Goandfindouttheanswer.
Thesearenotlove--I'mjustasking,I'mnotsayingit'sornot--howcanyouhavemercyonuswhenwe
Evenwhenwecan'tloveotherswiththeusuallove,weaskformorethanlove.
Q:
howdoyoufindthatkindoflove?
K:
Idon'twanttolookforthatlove.WhatIwanttodoistogetridofthepartoflovethatisnotlove,
Freedfromdependence.
Q:
thatmeansweshouldnotsplitintofragmentary.
K:
Sir,that'sjustatheory.Ifyoulovesomeone,findthem.Whenyoucareforyourself,you
Thequestion,yourambition,yourdesiretosucceed,youhavesomanydesires,andputyourselfinthefirstplace.
Second,howtolove,ortoputothersinthefirstplaceandyouputinasecondaryposition,isthesame.
Wehaveaskedsomanyquestions.Inspiteofourverbalunderstanding,thereisenvyordependence,loveisnot
Canalsoexist,wecansittogethertodiscusswhetherIcangetridofdependence?
Iwillhavesomedialoguewithmyself,
Canyou?
Andyoulistentome?
IknowIdon'tlovetohearthesewords.Thatisthetruth.Idon'twanttofoolmyself.Idon'twanttopretendtobeme.
Lovemywife-orloveawoman,agirl,aboy.Now,firstofall,Idon'tknowwhatloveis,butIdonotknowwhatitis.
IdoknowthatIamjealous,IdoknowthatIamverydependentonothers,andthereisfear,jealousy,anxiety
Sense.Idonotliketorelyon,butIrelyonbecauseIamlonely,andIhavebeenexcludedfromthecommunity,intheoffice,
Itisthesameinthefactory.Aftercominghome,Iwanttobecomforted,accompanied,toescapefrommyself.So,Irelyontheother
People.Now,Iaskmyselfnottoknowwhatloveis,howtogetridofdependence?
IwillnotpretendthatIhave.
TheloveofGod,theloveofJesus,Krishna'slove,Iwilllosethosenonsense.HowdoIputit
Takeoffallthesedependencies?
I'mjustanexample.
Iwillnotescapeit.Right?
Idon'tknowhowtoendmyrelationshipwithmywife.
Andwhensheisnot,andIcouldchangeher.Shemaydependonme,andImay
Won'tdependonheroranyotherwoman.Doyouknow?
It'snotthatIwanttoleaveher,tofindanotherwoman,
That'sverystupid.SowhatamIgoingtodo?
I'mnotgoingtorunawayfromtheoutcomeofthisdependence.Iwant
Study.Idon'tknowwhatloveis,butIcanseeitveryclearly,clearly,withoutanydoubt.
Tobedependentonothersmeansfear,anxiety,jealousy,possession,andsoon.SoIaskmyself:
howcanIputit
Dedependency?
Notamethod.Iwanttogetridofit,butIreallydon'tknowhowtodoit.Iamwithmyself
Theirconversation.
SoIstartedaskingquestions.ThenIfallintoasystem.IwascaughtupinsomeHinduguru,
Theysaid,"Iwillhelpyouout,dothisandthat,practicethisandthat."Iwanttogetridofit,
AndIacceptedthatstupidman,becauseIsawthatitwasimportanttogetridofit,andhepromisedme,suchas
IfIdothis,Iwillberewarded.SoIwanttogetridofitinreturn.Youknowwhat?
I'mlookingforit.
ReturnSoIseehowfoolishIam:
Iwanttogetridofit,butI'mboundtoreturn.
Ipainttheothersideofhumanity-Iamserious-soifItalktomyself,Iwillcry.That'sformysympathy.
Idon'twanttobeentangled,butIfindmyselfclingingtoabelief.Thatis,Ihavetogetridof,
Andotherbooksorbeliefsarementioned:
"dothis,thenyouwillhavethat."So,returntomydependence.
ThenIsaid,"lookwhatI'vedone.Becareful,don'tfallintothetrap.Whetherit'sawomanorabelief,it'sstill
Isadependency."Iunderstandthatitisstilladependencytoconvertittosomethingelse.SoI'mverycarefulnow.
Thentellyourself:
"thereisnoway,orwhatIdotoavoiddependence?
Whatismymotivation?
Whatisittobefreefromdependence,becauseitispainfulbecauseIwanttoreachtherealmofnodependence,nofear.
World?
"Pleasefollowme,becauseI'mhereforyou.Whatismymotiveforwantingtobefree?
Suddenlyunderstandthatmotivationwillgivedirection,andthatdirectionwillguidemyfreedom.WhyshouldIhaveamotive?
Whatisit?
Motivationisanaction,hopetoaccomplishsomething.Sothemotivationismydependence.motivation
Hasbecomemydependence,notjustawoman,thegoalofthefaith,butalsoincludingmymotivation,Ihavetohave
It.SoI'mlivinginadependent.Idependonwomen,thefuture,andthemotive.SoIsaid,"oh,
Oh,God!
That'sareallycomplicatedthing.Idon'tknowifI'mgoingtogetridofitall."
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Thereisnolove,thereisnolove2
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Now,Iseethemapclearly:
thesevillages,roads,roads.AndthenI'mright
"Itispossibleformetogetoutofmydependence,thewomanandtherewardIwant."
WhydoIrelyonthisbecauseofmyownlackofit?
BecauseI'msolonely,Iwantto
Escapefromloneliness,soattachedtootherthings-men,women,faith,motivation?
Formyloneliness,andthroughthedependenceonotherthingstoescapefromloneliness?
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So,I'mnotinterestedingoingtorelyon.I'minterestedinknowingwhyIfeellonely,itmakesme
Lai.Iwillbelonely,andlonelyforcemetoescapefromitbyclingingtosomething.AslongasI'mlonely,thenext
Thisistheway.SoIhavetostudywhyI'mlonely.Whatdoesitmeantobelonely?
It'showithappens.
Lonelinessisintuitive,innate,andgenetic,orisitaresultofmydailyactivities?
IquestionbecauseIdon'tacceptanything.Idon'tacceptitasaninstinctivesaying,butIthinkIcan'tdoit.
PowerIdon'tacceptthatit'sgenetic,sothatIdon'thavetobeblamed.WhenIdon'ttakeanyofthis
WhenIasked,"whydoyouexist?
"Iaskedmyquestionandkeptit.
Findtheanswer.Iaskmyself:
whatistherootofloneliness?
Iamnottryingtofindacleveranswer,Idonottrytotellthelonelywhatitshoulddo,orwhatitis.I'mwatchingit,letittellme.
Thelonelinessofthealertwillshowitself.IfIescape,fear,andresist,itwillnotshowits
Body.SoIlookatit.Ilookedatit,nothoughttointerfere,becausethisismoreimportantthanthinkingin.I
Alloftheenergyisintheobservationofloneliness,sotheideasimplycannotcome.Themindischallenged,itmustanswer.
Whenyouarechallenged,it'sacrisis.Inacrisis,youhaveallthepower,andtheabilitytonotbe
Interference,canbesaved.Thisisachallengethatmustberespondedto.Health?
Q:
howcanwekeepourenergy?
Howdoweuseit?
K:
youalreadyhave.Areyouconfused.
Yousee,Istartedtalkingtomyself.Iasked,"whatisthestrangethingthatiscalledlove?
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Everyoneistalkingaboutit,writingit,havingromanticpoetry,picturesandother,sexandthemess.and
Iasked:
doIhavethisthingcalledlove,ifyoureallylovethisstuff.Ifindthatwhenthereisjealousy,hatred
Lovedoesnotexistwhenitishateandfear.So,Idon'tcareaboutlove,Icareabout,thatis"real"
Myfears,mydependence,andthereasonswhyI'msodependent.IsaymaybeoneofthereasonsisthatIamlonely,
Completelyisolated.TheolderIget,themoreI'malone.SoIlookatit.Findingtheanswerisachallenge,butbecause
It'schallengingalltheenergyinthereaction.Verysimple,isn'tit?
Whensomeonediesinthefamily,
Isachallenge.Iftherearesomemajordisastersandaccidents,itisalsoachallenge,andyouhavethespirittoface
Onit.Youdon'tsay,"wheredoyougettheenergy?
"whenyourhouseisonfire,youhavetheenergytodoit.
Amountoffirefighting.Youhaveaspecialenergy.Youdon'tsitandsay,"Imusthaveenergy."Thenwait.that
Thehousewasburntdown.
So,youhavealotofenergytoanswerthequestion"whythereisloneliness".Ihaverefusedto
Passorinstinctiveideas,hypothesisortheoryofrhetoric.Allthishasnomeaningtome.Itiswhat".place
WhyIamlonely,notonlyme,everyoneislonely,ifheisconsciousofthewords-whetheritis
Asurfaceoradeeploneliness?
Whydoyouhaveaheart?
Doyouknow?
Instinct,heredity,Iwasaskingifitwasbroughtbythemind.
Isitcausedbytheheart?
Lonelinessrepresentstotalloneliness.Isittheheartandthemindthatcausesit?
Partofthethought.Isthoughttobemade,isthethoughtinthedailylifeofmanufacturing,causethiskindoflonelyfeeling?
Iisolatedmyself,becauseIwanttobecomeabishop,Pope--orithasbeeninchargeoftheoffice?
Isolateitself.Haveyounoticedthis?
Q:
Ithinkit'sisolatedandit'sabouttheextentofthecrowd.
K:
Yes.
Q:
it'slikeareaction.
K:
Yes,sir.Right.Iwanttoexplorethis.Iseethoughtsandhearts,alwaysinthe
Oneselfismoreoutstanding,ismoregreat,itleadstoloneliness.Thequestionis:
whydoyouwanttodothis?
Isthenatureofthemindtoworkforyourself,tocreateloneliness?
Issocietycreate