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英语学习爱与寂寞

Thereisnolove,thereisnolove1

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Doyouloveanyone?

Thatmeansyoudon'taskforanythinginreturn.Don'taskthepersonyoulovetorepay.Becauseas

Ifyourelyonit,thenfear,jealousy,anxiety,hatred,andangerbegin.Ifyourelyonsomeone,this

Isitlove?

K:

withallyourexperiences,alltheknowledge,andthecivilizationinwhichyouare,youaretheresultofit,

Whydoyouhavenomercyinyourdailylife?

Tofindoutwhyyoudon'thavethereasonwhyitisnot.

Inthehumanmind,thoughtandopinion,youarenotalsoasked:

doyouhaveanyloveforanyone?

Q:

Idoubt,sir,whatexactlyislove.

K:

Sir,Iamverycarefultoaskyouifyouloveanyone?

Youmayloveyourdog,butthedogisyours.

Slaves.Inadditiontotheloveofanimals,buildings,books,poems,andtheearth,doyouloveanyone?

Inreturn,donotaskthepersonyoulovetoreturn,neverrelyonhim.Becauseifyourelyonit,fear,jealousy,anxiety,hatred,andangerbegin.Ifyourelyonsomeone,isitlove?

Goandfindouttheanswer.

Thesearenotlove--I'mjustasking,I'mnotsayingit'sornot--howcanyouhavemercyonuswhenwe

Evenwhenwecan'tloveotherswiththeusuallove,weaskformorethanlove.

Q:

howdoyoufindthatkindoflove?

K:

Idon'twanttolookforthatlove.WhatIwanttodoistogetridofthepartoflovethatisnotlove,

Freedfromdependence.

Q:

thatmeansweshouldnotsplitintofragmentary.

K:

Sir,that'sjustatheory.Ifyoulovesomeone,findthem.Whenyoucareforyourself,you

Thequestion,yourambition,yourdesiretosucceed,youhavesomanydesires,andputyourselfinthefirstplace.

Second,howtolove,ortoputothersinthefirstplaceandyouputinasecondaryposition,isthesame.

Wehaveaskedsomanyquestions.Inspiteofourverbalunderstanding,thereisenvyordependence,loveisnot

Canalsoexist,wecansittogethertodiscusswhetherIcangetridofdependence?

Iwillhavesomedialoguewithmyself,

Canyou?

Andyoulistentome?

IknowIdon'tlovetohearthesewords.Thatisthetruth.Idon'twanttofoolmyself.Idon'twanttopretendtobeme.

Lovemywife-orloveawoman,agirl,aboy.Now,firstofall,Idon'tknowwhatloveis,butIdonotknowwhatitis.

IdoknowthatIamjealous,IdoknowthatIamverydependentonothers,andthereisfear,jealousy,anxiety

Sense.Idonotliketorelyon,butIrelyonbecauseIamlonely,andIhavebeenexcludedfromthecommunity,intheoffice,

Itisthesameinthefactory.Aftercominghome,Iwanttobecomforted,accompanied,toescapefrommyself.So,Irelyontheother

People.Now,Iaskmyselfnottoknowwhatloveis,howtogetridofdependence?

IwillnotpretendthatIhave.

TheloveofGod,theloveofJesus,Krishna'slove,Iwilllosethosenonsense.HowdoIputit

Takeoffallthesedependencies?

I'mjustanexample.

Iwillnotescapeit.Right?

Idon'tknowhowtoendmyrelationshipwithmywife.

Andwhensheisnot,andIcouldchangeher.Shemaydependonme,andImay

Won'tdependonheroranyotherwoman.Doyouknow?

It'snotthatIwanttoleaveher,tofindanotherwoman,

That'sverystupid.SowhatamIgoingtodo?

I'mnotgoingtorunawayfromtheoutcomeofthisdependence.Iwant

Study.Idon'tknowwhatloveis,butIcanseeitveryclearly,clearly,withoutanydoubt.

Tobedependentonothersmeansfear,anxiety,jealousy,possession,andsoon.SoIaskmyself:

howcanIputit

Dedependency?

Notamethod.Iwanttogetridofit,butIreallydon'tknowhowtodoit.Iamwithmyself

Theirconversation.

SoIstartedaskingquestions.ThenIfallintoasystem.IwascaughtupinsomeHinduguru,

Theysaid,"Iwillhelpyouout,dothisandthat,practicethisandthat."Iwanttogetridofit,

AndIacceptedthatstupidman,becauseIsawthatitwasimportanttogetridofit,andhepromisedme,suchas

IfIdothis,Iwillberewarded.SoIwanttogetridofitinreturn.Youknowwhat?

I'mlookingforit.

ReturnSoIseehowfoolishIam:

Iwanttogetridofit,butI'mboundtoreturn.

Ipainttheothersideofhumanity-Iamserious-soifItalktomyself,Iwillcry.That'sformysympathy.

Idon'twanttobeentangled,butIfindmyselfclingingtoabelief.Thatis,Ihavetogetridof,

Andotherbooksorbeliefsarementioned:

"dothis,thenyouwillhavethat."So,returntomydependence.

ThenIsaid,"lookwhatI'vedone.Becareful,don'tfallintothetrap.Whetherit'sawomanorabelief,it'sstill

Isadependency."Iunderstandthatitisstilladependencytoconvertittosomethingelse.SoI'mverycarefulnow.

Thentellyourself:

"thereisnoway,orwhatIdotoavoiddependence?

Whatismymotivation?

Whatisittobefreefromdependence,becauseitispainfulbecauseIwanttoreachtherealmofnodependence,nofear.

World?

"Pleasefollowme,becauseI'mhereforyou.Whatismymotiveforwantingtobefree?

Suddenlyunderstandthatmotivationwillgivedirection,andthatdirectionwillguidemyfreedom.WhyshouldIhaveamotive?

Whatisit?

Motivationisanaction,hopetoaccomplishsomething.Sothemotivationismydependence.motivation

Hasbecomemydependence,notjustawoman,thegoalofthefaith,butalsoincludingmymotivation,Ihavetohave

It.SoI'mlivinginadependent.Idependonwomen,thefuture,andthemotive.SoIsaid,"oh,

Oh,God!

That'sareallycomplicatedthing.Idon'tknowifI'mgoingtogetridofitall."

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Thereisnolove,thereisnolove2

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Now,Iseethemapclearly:

thesevillages,roads,roads.AndthenI'mright

"Itispossibleformetogetoutofmydependence,thewomanandtherewardIwant."

WhydoIrelyonthisbecauseofmyownlackofit?

BecauseI'msolonely,Iwantto

Escapefromloneliness,soattachedtootherthings-men,women,faith,motivation?

Formyloneliness,andthroughthedependenceonotherthingstoescapefromloneliness?

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So,I'mnotinterestedingoingtorelyon.I'minterestedinknowingwhyIfeellonely,itmakesme

Lai.Iwillbelonely,andlonelyforcemetoescapefromitbyclingingtosomething.AslongasI'mlonely,thenext

Thisistheway.SoIhavetostudywhyI'mlonely.Whatdoesitmeantobelonely?

It'showithappens.

Lonelinessisintuitive,innate,andgenetic,orisitaresultofmydailyactivities?

IquestionbecauseIdon'tacceptanything.Idon'tacceptitasaninstinctivesaying,butIthinkIcan'tdoit.

PowerIdon'tacceptthatit'sgenetic,sothatIdon'thavetobeblamed.WhenIdon'ttakeanyofthis

WhenIasked,"whydoyouexist?

"Iaskedmyquestionandkeptit.

Findtheanswer.Iaskmyself:

whatistherootofloneliness?

Iamnottryingtofindacleveranswer,Idonottrytotellthelonelywhatitshoulddo,orwhatitis.I'mwatchingit,letittellme.

Thelonelinessofthealertwillshowitself.IfIescape,fear,andresist,itwillnotshowits

Body.SoIlookatit.Ilookedatit,nothoughttointerfere,becausethisismoreimportantthanthinkingin.I

Alloftheenergyisintheobservationofloneliness,sotheideasimplycannotcome.Themindischallenged,itmustanswer.

Whenyouarechallenged,it'sacrisis.Inacrisis,youhaveallthepower,andtheabilitytonotbe

Interference,canbesaved.Thisisachallengethatmustberespondedto.Health?

Q:

howcanwekeepourenergy?

Howdoweuseit?

K:

youalreadyhave.Areyouconfused.

Yousee,Istartedtalkingtomyself.Iasked,"whatisthestrangethingthatiscalledlove?

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Everyoneistalkingaboutit,writingit,havingromanticpoetry,picturesandother,sexandthemess.and

Iasked:

doIhavethisthingcalledlove,ifyoureallylovethisstuff.Ifindthatwhenthereisjealousy,hatred

Lovedoesnotexistwhenitishateandfear.So,Idon'tcareaboutlove,Icareabout,thatis"real"

Myfears,mydependence,andthereasonswhyI'msodependent.IsaymaybeoneofthereasonsisthatIamlonely,

Completelyisolated.TheolderIget,themoreI'malone.SoIlookatit.Findingtheanswerisachallenge,butbecause

It'schallengingalltheenergyinthereaction.Verysimple,isn'tit?

Whensomeonediesinthefamily,

Isachallenge.Iftherearesomemajordisastersandaccidents,itisalsoachallenge,andyouhavethespirittoface

Onit.Youdon'tsay,"wheredoyougettheenergy?

"whenyourhouseisonfire,youhavetheenergytodoit.

Amountoffirefighting.Youhaveaspecialenergy.Youdon'tsitandsay,"Imusthaveenergy."Thenwait.that

Thehousewasburntdown.

So,youhavealotofenergytoanswerthequestion"whythereisloneliness".Ihaverefusedto

Passorinstinctiveideas,hypothesisortheoryofrhetoric.Allthishasnomeaningtome.Itiswhat".place

WhyIamlonely,notonlyme,everyoneislonely,ifheisconsciousofthewords-whetheritis

Asurfaceoradeeploneliness?

Whydoyouhaveaheart?

Doyouknow?

Instinct,heredity,Iwasaskingifitwasbroughtbythemind.

Isitcausedbytheheart?

Lonelinessrepresentstotalloneliness.Isittheheartandthemindthatcausesit?

Partofthethought.Isthoughttobemade,isthethoughtinthedailylifeofmanufacturing,causethiskindoflonelyfeeling?

Iisolatedmyself,becauseIwanttobecomeabishop,Pope--orithasbeeninchargeoftheoffice?

Isolateitself.Haveyounoticedthis?

Q:

Ithinkit'sisolatedandit'sabouttheextentofthecrowd.

K:

Yes.

Q:

it'slikeareaction.

K:

Yes,sir.Right.Iwanttoexplorethis.Iseethoughtsandhearts,alwaysinthe

Oneselfismoreoutstanding,ismoregreat,itleadstoloneliness.Thequestionis:

whydoyouwanttodothis?

Isthenatureofthemindtoworkforyourself,tocreateloneliness?

Issocietycreate