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凯莉成长日记
1.1
It’salwaysthesamedream.I’minthecity.AndI
belong.Manhattanismine.
Hey,watchit!
ButthenIalwayswakeupthesameoldCarrie
Bradshaw.InCastlebury,Connecticut.Theysaythekeytobeingawriteris
figuringoutwhoyouare,findingyourvoice.Well,thatseemedtobetheonly
thingIhadfoundthatday.
Whereisit?
Please,please.Dorrit!
Where’sthepurse?
Whatpurse?
Givemeabreak,Dorrit.Youknowexactlywhichpurse
I’mtalkingabout.Mom’spurse.
Youcan’tgothroughmystuff.Don’t.
Youhavepot?
Yourfriendssmokepot.
You’re14.
So?
Soifdadfindsout,he’sgoingtokillyou.
Soyoubetternottellhim.
Well,it’dserveyourightifIdid.
You’resuchatattletale.I’msorryIhavea
life,andyoudon’t.
Oh,isthatwhyyou’realwaysspyingonme,listening
tomyphoneconversations?
Donot!
Don’t,too!
Theyear,1984.Romancenovelswerealltherage.We
hadanactorforpresident,andmostpeoplecouldsaytheywerebetteroffnow
thantheywerefouryearsago.Exceptus.Fouryearsago,wehadourmom,And
threemonthsago,welosthertocancer.Thingsweredefinitelynotbetter.
Givemebackmypurse,Dorrit!
God,whatthehellisgoingoninhere?
!
Shebitme!
She’sgoingthroughmystuff!
Wedonothavetimeforthis.Youbothhavetobein
schoolinhalfanhour,allright?
Carrie,goonandgetdressed.
Iknowyoutookit.
Go.Youcan’tbelateonyourfirst
day.And,Dorrit,Thatis…waytoomucheyemakeup.Carrie,you’retheolderone.You
can’ttakethebait.
Ihaveteethmarksonmyarm.
IknowthatDorritcanbedifficult.But…yourmom
wouldwantyoutwotogetalong.
Yeah.Yeah,Iknow.
Allright?
Sowhateveryoutwowerefighting
about,it’snotworthit.
Shestolemom’spurse.
Youdon’tknowthat.
Ican’tgotoschoolwithoutthepurse,dad.
You’regoingtoschool.
Idon’thaveanythingtowear.
comeon.You’vegotawholefloorfullofclothing.
No.Momusedtotakemeshoppingforanoutfit.It
was…wasathingwedid,youknow?
Back-to-schoolchothes?
Okay.Didyouwantmetotakeyou?
No.No,thatwas,um…supposedtobemom.
ISee.
Ijust…Ineedthepurse.I-Ineedapieceofher.
Ihaveanidea.
MymotherleftusonMemorialDay,andthat’swhat
thisclosetfeltlike—amemorial,astilllifeofourlifewithouther,asif
leavingituntouchedmightsomehowbringherback.Wehadbeenforbiddento
enter…untilnow.
Uh,notthatdress.Sheworeitonherlast
birthday.Youcouldspillsomethingonitorripit,youknow?
Really?
Yeah.Just…trynottolet’emgetbrokeninyour
backpack.
I’llbesupercareful,Ipromise.
ThefirstdayofschoolwassomethingIusually
foundexciting.Butsomuchhadchangedforme.
AsIwatchedeveryonepassingaroundthenewsof
thedaylikemonoafterahomecomingdance.IrealizedthatIwasthevirusno
onewantedtogetnear—Thefreakwhohadlosthermom…ExceptforDonnaLaDonna
andherminions,theJens.Donnawasjusttwistedenoughtothinkaconnectionto
tragedywouldmakeherthatmuchmorecompelling,andshewouldn’tbewrong.
Carrie,youpoorgirl.Areyoudoingokay?
Yeah.I’mfine.
Okay,well,ifyouneedanything—Imean,ashoulderto
cryon,fashiontips,maybeevenawandofmascara,I’mhereforyou.
I’llkeepthatinmind.Thanks.
You’resuchagoodperson.
Thanks.
Andthenthereweremypeople—Mybestfriendswho
lovedmenomatterwhat.
Bradshaw.
Mouse.
Iheartyou,youknow?
Iknow.Ineedit.
Boobtoboob,baby.
Hi,Maggie.
Walt,nicesweater.Isthattheonefrom…
TheoneRobLowewaswearingin“Interview”?
Nice
Howyouholdingup?
I’dbealotbetterifIdidn’tfeellikeeveryone
wasstaringatme.
Please.Nooneisevenlookingatyou.
Believeitornot,IthinkMagsactuallymeantthat
asacompliment.
Thereiswaybiggernewstoday.
Ihavetoagree.Newkid.
Newguy.Ajuniorlikeus.
Doesnewkidhaveaname?
Evenhisnameiscool.
SebastianKydd.
Therehewas—thenewkid,SebastianKydd.
He’sbeenkickedoutofthreeboardoagschool—Deerfield,Exeter,andIforgetwhere
else.Hisparentsfinallyhadtogiveupandbringhimhome,They’retotally
rich.HedrivesaPorsche.
Mags,youdorealizeI’mstandingrighthere,andI’m
yourboyfriend?
Hey,Bradshaw.
Hey.
Heardaboutyourmom.Realbummer.
Thanks.
I’llseeyouaround.Ican’tgetkickedoutof
anotherschoolthisearlyintheyear.
Soyouhavesomeexplainingtodo.
Whydidyouhidethisfromus?
Weneedtoknow
everything.
I’mnothidinganything,Iswear.Lastsummer,hehung
outattheswimclub.
Whydon’tIswim?
Becauseyourhairwouldgetwetandyourmakeup
wouldrun.
Where’sWalt?
ItoldhimIwantedittobejustusgirls.
Wereyoutwofightingagain?
Comeon.Youguysarenevergonnabreakup.You’re
forever.
That’sright,andtheMouseandIwouldbeacouple
forever,too.
Whydoyouhavethatlookonyourface?
Mouse,didyoumeetsomeone?
Areyoubreakingupwith
me?
AtthepageprograminD.C.I’vebeendyingtotell
youguys.
Sostarttalking.
Seth.SethGlassman.He’sfromWashington,startedPrinceton.He’sa
freshman.
Ishoulddateanolderguy.
He’samazing.Sosmart.Imean,we’dstayupinthe
dormroomsandwe’djusttalkabouteverything.AndI’dwakeupinhisarmsand
justthink…
Thatyougotlaid.
Justbecauseallyouthinkaboutislosingyour
virginitydoesn’tmeantheMousedoes.Wait.YoulostyourvirginitytoSeth?
Itwaslikeputtingahotdogonakeyhole.Ithurts
sobad.AndIjustkeptthinking,like,whenisthisgoingtoend?
Andluckilyit
did,becauseitwasoverintwoseconds.
Itwasn’tlikethatformeatall.
Wait.YouandWalthadsex?
Iwasn’tsupposedtosayanything.
Waltwon’tbemad.
No,hewill.Just…swearyouwon’tsayanything.
Iwon’t.Iswear.So…I’mthelastvirgin?
It’snobigdeal,Carrie.Imean,sexisn’t
everything.
So…youdon’tfeellikeitchangedyou?
It’sweird.Like,Ifeelmoreconfident,likeIknow
stuff,butscaredcausethere’ssomethingtolose.
Areyouinlovewithhim?
Weshouldgoonadoubledate.Ishecomingupto
visit?
Yeah,Imean…
WhileIhadspentmysummergrievingandlettinggo
ofmychildhhod,myfriendswerefallinginloveandenteringadulthood.
Weshouldgoonatripledate.YoushouldaskSebastian
out.
Askhimtothenewbeginningsdance.Maybehe’llhot
dogyourkeyhole.
Delightful.That’sjusthowI’llaskhim.
Ifyoudo,thenhe’lldefinitelysay”yes.’
Virgin—asexuallyinexperiencedwoman,ablankslate
unchangedbyanypastintimateconnectionorexperience.Theunintiated.Yep,that
prettymuchdescribedme.
Youstolemyhidingplace.
Youhangoutherealot?
Yeah.Yeah,it’saprettygoodescape.
Youhadalottogetawayfrom.
IfonlyIcouldescapemybrain.Doyouever—doyou
everjustsitthere,and—andthewordsandthoughtsare,like,happeningsofast
inyourmindthatyoujust—youcan’tevenunderstandthem?
Notreally.
IwishIhadn’tjustsaidthat,then.
Ithinkit’scoolyouhavesomuchgoingoninyour
head.You’vebeenthroughstuff.Notmanypeopleherecansaythat.
Canyou?
Who,me?
Poorlittlerichkidwhosemomleftwiththe
tennisinstructor?
I’mstillachiche.Yourmomleft?
I’msorry.Ididn’tknow—
Oh,don’tworry.OurmaidLuisastillgetsdinneron
thetable.Nothing’sreallychanged.
Nobody’sbetteroffwithoutamom.
I’msorry,Carrie.
Itwashardtobelieveitwasonlylastyearwehad
spentthesummerhangingout.
Ican’tbelieveyoudon’tknowAtari”Adventure”
Noway.”Spaceinvaders.”That’smygame.Imean,come
on.Yougettokillaliens.
Oh,you’recrazy.No,”Adventure”issocool.Youhave
togetthismagicchalicetoagoldcastle,andthenthere’sthesedragonsthat
aretryingtokillyou.
Soyou’retheprincesswhoslaystheirowndragons?
Well,somedodyhasto.Mightaswellbeme,right?
I’dslayadragonforyou.
Suddenlyeverythingwasdifferent.Iknewhewas
gonnakissme,soIdidwhatanyscared15-year-oldgirlwoulddo.
Aah!
Oh,nowyou’reinforit.
No!
stop.Stop.
ItwasamomentIwantedtolastforever.Myfirst
kiss.
My,uh,parentsareputtinginapoolatourhouse.It’s
almostdone.
Oh.Cool.
Oncehehadhisownpool,IknewIwouldneversee
himagain.AndIwasright…untiltoday.
Doyoustillswim?
Yeah.Yeah,Ireallyloveit.
Ineverswim.
Really?
That’skindofawastesinceyouhaveapool
inyourbackyard.Hey,wouldyou,um
Ishould…You
Me?
Yeah.
Me.Okay.Um…Wouldyou,uh…Would—wouldyou…
Checkitout.
Wouldyouwannagoto…Wouldyouwant…
Whywasmyfatherhere?
ThelasttimeIhadseenhim
inthesehalls,Ilostthemostimportantpersoninmylife.
Youneedtocomehome.Yourmom’sunconscious.Itwon’t
betoomuchlonger.
Carrie?
Areyouokay?
Carrie?
Carrie?
Areyouokay?
Carrie?
Carrie?
Givehersomeair.
Kiddo?
Kiddo,canyouhearme?
Carrie?
!
Thanksforkeepinganeyeonher.
Ofcourse,Mr.Bradshaw.Ibetterheadbackin.
Oh.I’llcallyoulater.
Okay.Bye.
I’mtakingyouhome.
Dad,I’mfine.
Youfainted.
IjustgotscaredwhenIsawyou.Youknow,thelast
timeyouwerehere…
Yeah.Yeah,I’msorry.Ishould’ve—Ishould’vetold
youIwascomingintomeetwithyourguidancecounselor.
Yeah,youshouldhave,andIdon’tneedsomeshrink
talkingabouthowscrewedupIam.
That’snotwhatweweretalkingabout.
Thenwhat?
You’vebeenthroughalot,andwethoughtmaybeit
mightbeagoodideaifyouhadachangeofpace,achangeofscenery.
You’reshippingmeofftoaloonybin.
Somewouldcallitthat…orcallmecrazyfor
agreeingtothi