A Telephone Call3000字.docx

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ATelephoneCall3000字

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PLEASE,God,lethimtelephonemenow.DearGod,lethimcallmenow.Iwon'taskanythingelseofYou,trulyIwon't.Itisn'tverymuchtoask.ItwouldbesolittletoYou,God,suchalittle,littlething.Onlylethimtelephonenow.Please,God.Please,please,please.

IfIdidn'tthinkaboutit,maybethetelephonemightring.Sometimesitdoesthat.IfIcouldthinkofsomethingelse.IfIcouldthinkofsomethingelse.MaybeifIcountedfivehundredbyfives,itmightringbythattime.I'llcountslowly.Iwon'tcheat.AndifitringswhenIgettothreehundred,Iwon'tstop;Iwon'tanswerituntilIgettofivehundred.Five,ten,fifteen,twenty,twenty-five,thirty,thirty-five,forty,forty-five,fifty....Oh,pleasering.Please.

ThisisthelasttimeI'lllookattheclock.Iwillnotlookatitagain.It'stenminutespastseven.Hesaidhewouldtelephoneatfiveo'clock."I'llcallyouatfive,darling."Ithinkthat'swherehesaid"darling."I'malmostsurehesaiditthere.Iknowhecalledme"darling"twice,andtheothertimewaswhenhesaidgood-bye."Good-bye,darling."Hewasbusy,andhecan'tsaymuchintheoffice,buthecalledme"darling"twice.Hecouldn'thavemindedmycallinghimup.Iknowyoushouldn'tkeeptelephoningthem?

Iknowtheydon'tlikethat.Whenyoudothattheyknowyouarethinkingaboutthemandwantingthem,andthatmakesthemhateyou.ButIhadn'ttalkedtohiminthreedays?

notinthreedays.AndallIdidwasaskhimhowhewas;itwasjustthewayanybodymighthavecalledhimup.Hecouldn'thavemindedthat.Hecouldn'thavethoughtIwasbotheringhim."No,ofcourseyou'renot,"hesaid.Andhesaidhe'dtelephoneme.

Hedidn'thavetosaythat.Ididn'taskhimto,trulyIdidn't.I'msureIdidn't.Idon'tthinkhewouldsayhe'dtelephoneme,andthenjustneverdoit.Pleasedon'tlethimdothat,God.Pleasedon't.

"I'llcallyouatfive,darling.""Good-bye,darling."Hewasbusy,andhewasinahurry,andtherewerepeoplearoundhim,buthecalledme"darling"twice.That'smine,that'smine.Ihavethat,evenifIneverseehimagain.Oh,butthat'ssolittle.Thatisn'tenough.Nothing'senough,ifIneverseehimagain.Pleaseletmeseehimagain,God.Please,Iwanthimsomuch.Iwanthimsomuch.I'llbegood,God.Iwilltrytobebetter,Iwill,Ifyouwillletmeseehimagain.IfYouwilllethimtelephoneme.Oh,lethimtelephonemenow.

Ah,don'tletmyprayerseemtoolittletoYou,God.Yousitupthere,sowhiteandold,withalltheangelsaboutYouandthestarsslippingby.AndIcometoYouwithaprayeraboutatelephonecall.Ah,don'tlaugh,God.Yousee,Youdon'tknowhowitfeels.You'resosafe,thereonYourthrone,withtheblueswirlingunderYou.NothingcantouchYou;noonecantwistYourheartinhishands.Thisissuffering,God,thisisbad,badsuffering.Won'tYouhelpme?

ForYourSon'ssake,helpme.YousaidYouwoulddowhateverwasaskedofYouinHisname.Oh,God,inthenameofThine6onlybelovedSon,JesusChrist,ourLord,lethimtelephonemenow.

Imuststopthis.Imustn'tbethisway.Look.Supposeayoungmansayshe'llcallagirlup,andthensomethinghappens,andhedoesn't.Thatisn'tsoterrible,isit?

Why,it'sgoingonallovertheworld,rightthisminute.Oh,whatdoIcarewhat'sgoingonallovertheworld?

Whycan'tthattelephonering?

Whycan'tit,whycan'tit?

Couldn'tyouring?

Ah,please,couldn'tyou?

Youdamned,ugly,shinything.Itwouldhurtyoutoring,wouldn'tit?

Oh,thatwouldhurtyou.Damnyou,I'llpullyourfilthyrootsoutofthewall,I'llsmashyoursmugblackfaceinlittlebits.7Damnyoutohell.

No,no,no.Imuststop.Imustthinkaboutsomethingelse.ThisiswhatI'lldo.I'llputtheclockintheotherroom.ThenIcan'tlookatit.IfIdohavetolookatit,thenI'llhavetowalkintothebedroom,andthatwillbesomethingtodo.Maybe,beforeIlookatitagain,hewillcallme.I'llbesosweettohim,ifhecallsme.Ifhesayshecan'tseemetonight,I'llsay,"Why,that'sallright,dear.Why,ofcourseit'sallright."I'llbethewayIwaswhenIfirstmethim.Thenmaybehe'lllikemeagain.Iwasalwayssweet,atfirst.Oh,it'ssoeasytobesweettopeoplebeforeyoulovethem.

Ithinkhemuststilllikemealittle.Hecouldn'thavecalledme"darling"twicetoday,ifhedidn'tstilllikemealittle.Itisn'tallgone,ifhestilllikesmealittle;evenifit'sonlyalittle,littlebit.Yousee,God,ifYouwouldjustlethimtelephoneme,Iwouldn'thavetoaskYouanythingmore.Iwouldbesweettohim,Iwouldbegay,IwouldbejustthewayIusedtobe,andthenhewouldlovemeagain.AndthenIwouldneverhavetoaskYouforanythingmore.Don'tYousee,God?

Sowon'tYoupleaselethimtelephoneme?

Won'tYouplease,please,please?

AreYoupunishingme,God,becauseI'vebeenbad?

AreYouangrywithmebecauseIdidthat?

Oh,but,God,therearesomanybadpeople?

Youcouldnotbehardonlytome.Anditwasn'tverybad;itcouldn'thavebeenbad.Wedidn'thurtanybody,God.Thingsareonlybadwhentheyhurtpeople.Wedidn'thurtonesinglesoul;Youknowthat.Youknowitwasn'tbad,don'tYou,God?

Sowon'tYoulethimtelephonemenow?

Ifhedoesn'ttelephoneme,I'llknowGodisangrywithme.I'llcountfivehundredbyfives,andifhehasn'tcalledmethen,IwillknowGodisn'tgoingtohelpme,everagain.Thatwillbethesign.Five,ten,fifteen,twenty,twenty-five,thirty,thirty-five,forty,forty-five,fifty,fifty-five...Itwasbad.Iknewitwasbad.Allright,God,sendmetohell.YouthinkYou'refrighteningmewithYourhell,don'tYou?

Youthink.Yourhellisworsethanmine.

Imustn't.Imustn'tdothis.Supposehe'salittlelatecallingmeup?

that'snothingtogethystericalabout.Maybeheisn'tgoingtocall?

maybehe'scomingstraightupherewithouttelephoning.He'llbecross10ifheseesIhavebeencrying.Theydon'tlikeyoutocry.Hedoesn'tcry.IwishtoGodIcouldmakehimcry.IwishIcouldmakehimcryandtreadthefloorandfeelhisheartheavyandbigandfesteringinhim.IwishIcouldhurthimlikehell.

Hedoesn'twishthataboutme.Idon'tthinkheevenknowshowhemakesmefeel.Iwishhecouldknow,withoutmytellinghim.Theydon'tlikeyoutotellthemthey'vemadeyoucry.Theydon'tlikeyoutotellthemyou'reunhappybecauseofthem.Ifyoudo,theythinkyou'repossessiveandexacting.Andthentheyhateyou.Theyhateyouwheneveryousayanythingyoureallythink.Youalwayshavetokeepplayinglittlegames.Oh,Ithoughtwedidn'thaveto;IthoughtthiswassobigIcouldsaywhateverImeant.Iguessyoucan't,ever.Iguessthereisn'teveranythingbigenoughforthat.Oh,ifhewouldjusttelephone,Iwouldn'ttellhimIhadbeensadabouthim.Theyhatesadpeople.Iwouldbesosweetandsogay,hecouldn'thelpbutlikeme.Ifhewouldonlytelephone.Ifhewouldonlytelephone.

Maybethat'swhatheisdoing.Maybeheiscomingonherewithoutcallingmeup.Maybehe'sonhiswaynow.Somethingmighthavehappenedtohim.No,nothingcouldeverhappentohim.Ican'tpictureanythinghappeningtohim.Ineverpicturehimrunover.Ineverseehimlyingstillandlonganddead.Iwishheweredead.That'saterriblewish.That'salovelywish.Ifheweredead,hewouldbemine.Ifheweredead,Iwouldneverthinkofnowandthelastfewweeks.Iwouldrememberonlythelovelytimes.Itwouldbeallbeautiful.Iwishheweredead.Iwishheweredead,dead,dead.

Thisissilly.It'ssillytogowishingpeopleweredeadjustbecausetheydon'tcallyouuptheveryminutetheysaidtheywould.Maybetheclock'sfast;Idon'tknowwhetherit'sright.Maybehe'shardlylateatall.Anythingcouldhavemadehimalittlelate.Maybehehadtostayathisoffice.Maybehewenthome,tocallmeupfromthere,andsomebodycamein.Hedoesn'tliketotelephonemeinfrontofpeople.Maybehe'sworried,justalittle,littlebit,aboutkeepingmewaiting.HemightevenhopethatIwouldcallhimup.Icoulddothat.Icouldtelephonehim.

Imustn't.Imustn't,Imustn't.Oh,God,pleasedon'tletmetelephonehim.Pleasekeepmefromdoingthat.Iknow,God,justaswellasYoudo,thatifhewereworriedaboutme,he'dtelephonenomatterwherehewasorhowmanypeopletherewerearoundhim.Pleasemakemeknowthat,God.Idon'taskYOUtomakeiteasyforme?

Youcan'tdothat,forallthatYoucouldmakeaworld.Onlyletmeknowit,God.Don'tletmegoonhoping.Don'tletmesaycomfortingthingstomyself.Pleasedon'tletmehope,dearGod.Pleasedon't.

Iwon'ttelephonehim.I'llnevertelephonehimagainaslongasIlive.He'llrotinhell,beforeI'llcallhimup.Youdon'thavetogivemestrength,God;Ihaveitmyself.Ifhewantedme,hecouldgetme.HeknowswhereIam.HeknowsI'mwaitinghere.He'ssosureofme,sosure.Iwonderwhytheyhateyou,assoonastheyaresureofyou.Ishouldthinkitwouldbesosweettobesure.

Itwouldbesoeasytotelephonehim.ThenI'dknow.Maybeitwouldn'tbea